My Own Worst Enemy


It’s amazing how when we’re really focused on something that we can completely block out other parts of life and give them no consideration whatsoever. With finishing classes on Thursday, a whole region of my brain suddenly turned back on. I never realized the things I had blocked out until I didn’t have to think about moving to Maryland, signing up for classes, and then taking classes all summer and all of the mental capacity that ate up.

Not to say that’s a terribly good thing…but definitely a different use of my brain than the past two or three months. It didn’t help that I saw a someone for the first time in about a year that really made me think about the mythical “what might have been.” What would life be like now if a few things back then had happened a little differently? They’d be different, very different, but I couldn’t help but feel like they would be just as good. It’s not like I haven’t thought about this before, or in the past year, but actually being there, three inches away and having a conversation made it so much more real.

Here’s to one more week of being lost in my head, then back to classes and the world of no time to think…

August 23, 2005 By cjhannas life plans Uncategorized Share:
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